Lately I am struggling between my past self and my future self. My past self wants me to continue on the road she has taken and plough on.

My future self says she is tired of waiting her turn. She is different from the past one, radically different, and she wonders if she waits longer, she may never get a opportunity to exist.

And I, the present one, am torn between the two. I am not at peace. I am impatient with both of them. For my past one for holding on to me, and making me her commitment device, and for the future one for despairing.

I think my future self will win. Not time for her yet - but will soon be.

Price

Never ever compare yourself with anyone else. Never envy anyone.

You have no idea of the price they have paid to be where they are.

There is always more than what meets the eye. You only see what they have become today, but have no idea of the price that has been paid by them in the process of becoming. The inner outcome of paying the price is hidden, known only to the person who paid. You, being what you are, may have never agreed to pay that price.

The hardest thing...

The hardest thing to kill is Hope.

Like life, it springs eternal in the human heart.